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the YEar Of Stress

Sun, 06 May 2012 01:19:25 +0100

Oh well Guys out there are use to always say that "NEXT Year would be a better YEAR"
but then, i feel that this year 2012 is full of craps !!!
i have been facing so much stress. and its making me old!

FAMILY (takeout 90% of my life)
WORK (take out 70% of my life)
BILLS!!! (take out 70% of my life)
AND soon STUDIES

when i reach home i thought that i would be able to have a good nap and rest well for tomorrow's war, but then my mum starts to use the POWER !!! and the BEST thing is that i'm not the one that makes her angry... and use would always throw all the SHIT to me.. can't i have some peace??? ( only when DArling is at my place my mum will not be the same)
the only time i can sleep well on my bed is when DArling Baobei is at my place.. if not i would be having lots of F up times.. even i stya silent my mum will still F me up !! like that is wrong with her ???

now work. have been working with SE Derrick for NeeSoon-Sembawang T,C
it was a real easy job till that day when things turn out other ways round..
this black black play me out...
and now T,C fine me !!!
cisco Blame me !!!
OE Lim Blame me
SE Derrick Blame me
OM Guna Was happy that i turn out this way
and i can't work at night for HQ because OM guna dun allow !!! and he would always ask me to leave hq if he saw me.
and what to do his rank is bigger = balls also bigger!!!
now i got to stay in that company for other 2mths!! when others can jus F O if they dun wanna work any more !!
see la !!

Because of the T,C it add in to my Bills !!
i got to push myself even more harder then ever
then i cannot work when guna is around,, i feel so Sucks in life that i got to hide when i wanna work!!!! i'm like a 10 year old kid that can't got to hide from the POLICE and MOM officer when working !! i feel so sucks in life now ...

but then other thing is that i've a Lady that is sweet to me and have been always pushing me..
even i have to face all those craps but then i know that i'm not facing it alone...
there will be always some out there to help me out...

being all by myself at P3

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 23:19:00 +0100

when i was at a very young age around P3 i guess..
i remember that the teacher would always make us stay back till we are done with our School work, and since P1 i have been taking school to sch and end of sch. and the bus would nbever wait for us, it will always leave with the time is there.
i do not have any CCAs so i would always wait for the bus once my lesson ended.

as i was saying the teacher would make us stay back, and i got to be the once that would stay back due to one of the subject that i'm very weak on. that is Chinese.. the dame teacher would leave me all alone in the Class room and never failed the door of the class rooms would always be close. and no one is there to teach me what i should do and what i should write.. i always end up writing craps and get scolding..
the feeling of being all by yourself in the cold Old calss rooms Sucks and i'm alwaying out for my mum haahaaa....

but then after scolding the teacher would ask me to leave and take the Sc hool work back home and make it as HOME work. at the time there is BUS FARE CARD, where by u got to press the fare $$ by yourself..

and i remember once i was Having Exam On that day as well,, and guess what i when to school by foot because on my way to the Bus stop i LOST My BUS CARD ! , from my place to Jin Tai Pri Was Not as Fare as u think but at my age i was So Scared PPl all arond looked at me it makes my whole trip Tears,, i tears all my way to school because i'm so scared and at my age that point of time it was really fare for me to walk , my legs were so painful and i ppl around looked at me, pointing their finger at me.
once i reach school to sit for the paper, the teacher scolded me for being late when i tell the teacher that i lost my BUS Card, the Teacher Replied me " dun make up story, i will call ur mother and when u reach home your mum will beat u again!!!" i told the teacher dun call my mum, because i was so scared of my mum...
after the paper has ended the lesson has ended, i was been asked to stay back all by myself once again in school in the DAME OLD CLASS ROOM !!!!!!!!!!!
and walked all by myself back from school to Home. there was this temple was the Crazy Dog near my school, i was scared that the Dog would somehow dash out ,( but i have never seen the DOg before =_= )

it maybe a small thing that u guys maybe thinking now , but then all i can say that the trip, was really lonely u have no one by urside, u got to walk the roads that u never walk alone before, u got to look at ppl point at u, and yet no one is there to help u . the trip became long and all u wanna do it jus run ....

i hate being all alone till now ,,,

9/1/2012

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 19:53:50 +0100

its a brand new year !! but then taniel is working mad.
i dun know la my brain has been playing tricks on me daily..

i really dun know what to do but to say I'm Sorry !!!!

23/12/2011

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 20:05:58 +0100

oh well X mas is coming real soon !! and Guess what Taniel Is All Alone for this Year Xmas !!!

Sometime i was thinking if my life should be like this,, in The Dark and The Four Wall that i always face..
ya i so empty, too empty i guess till i jus dun know what to say ba !!
tmr will be going to visit da jie, ya not going to work so that i can see how is da jie,, hoping that she will be well

can't sleep at all now...
haizzzzz

Logging off and look at my Four walls.....

2 Dec 2011

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 20:02:17 +0100

Once Again Its coming to an End of 2011 real soon.

reminds me of so many unhappiness things that happen in this few years...
always hoping that things would jus get better everyday of my life..
but it seems unchange..

got myself a New headphone by monster(beats tour)

jus hoping everything will goes well ... i'm tired of this life....

added a other song (Too Much So Much Very Much) @ Multimedia IT

08 Nov 2011

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 19:38:09 +0100

Today its a Crazy DAy !!! i can't believe that my I-Phone Stop working when i'm at City Hall waiting for my Gangs !!!
Shit man ! totally cannot on at all and i was like Shit Shit !! was the Battery when low or what !! but then i remember that i last seen was like 75% but what the hall when wrong to my Phone !!! and i can't even call out or whatever so !! was like going crazy with that dame Phone lor !!!
and i when to Lee Hwa and thank god they help me to charge and have a Look if the Phone turns on ! but then its Still BLACK screen !!!!!! FML!!!!

in the end under yvonne's(Lee hwa citi link manager) magic Hand it turns On.. i was like O.O and Thank Her and i got a Call from Faith And Told me that they are waiting for me at the Bus Stop le !! i Rush as Fast as i can to get myself there !!

and i tell myself that no matter what !!i will change my Phone the NEXT day !!!

20/10/2011

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 17:19:40 +0100

Oh Well !!! Now The Time is 5.07AM and i'm still awake !!! can't sleep at all !! dun know what to do now!!
was sleepy like 30mins ago aclosing my eyes !! jus dun know why can't Sleep again!!

Feeling abit Mass !!! abit Over Lonely !! ..

oh welll
Spend 200 on a VideoCard !! KNN Like Crazy like that !! I'm not even a Gamer Why must i buy a Video Card at a High price !!(XFX HD 6790) http://xfxforce.com/en-us/products/graphiccards/hd%206000series/6790.aspx
and spend 102 for a Power supply to support the video Card.
its so crazy !!! maybe i'm not in Mood ba, spend money to Put My bad moods aside !!!

I've a Message From my In-charge thats is from City-link,
that i'm Been Transfer to MBS !
is like !! OMG !!! SO FAR !!!! WAN ME DIE AR !!!!
cannot even Cover my Transport fee lor
but its okay.... i'm jus going to be there for like 2 weeks and BYE !!!!!

would be trying to fall back to sleep again !!!
hopping to Close my eyes and reach LaLa Land !!!
logging out at 5.15AM

13/10/2011-15/10/2011

Sat, 15 Oct 2011 08:40:24 +0100

13/10/2011
I Tender le ...
haizzz!!! working in a outlet that i totally dun feel like working at !! i miz GoldHeart City Square(GCS) !
but what to do GCS close down le =(
and i'll be going for my Dip le ...
i hope i had made the right choice to do it ...

14/10/2011
its other day ! wake up not feeling that well and when to took MC and the Doctor given me 2days Of Mc ...
send all the time out with mitchal out to playground to relax!! till 6.00AM in the Morning !!!!

15/10/2011
wake up in the morning and saw Jerica's sms about meeting me up to pass me my birthday present today.so i agree with it and meet her up at 3.30PM got the Gift in a Very Happy Mood ^^ ... well at list someone do remembers me u know !!
unlike others out there always OPEN their Mouth Say HEY CAN LEND ME $100 HEY CAN LEND ME $300.. But there is not Return ....... -_-||| know him/her(not to be named) for so many years already and yet my birthday not even a Happy Birthday was send by HIM\HER(not to be named) was totally upsad with that !!! on my birthday ....

but then nvm !!! life still have to go on !! who cares !!!!

now back at home awaiting for DAjie to call !!

New Song

Sat, 01 Oct 2011 18:02:18 +0100

Just add a New song over at "Muitimedia IT"

21st Birthday!

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 20:41:47 +0100

I'm 21!!! (key holder)

can't believe that time fly's so fast and I'm 21 now
i had super enjoy myself on that day with My Outlet (goldheart City Square)
Family Members and Take5

cakes And More Cakes !!!
Song ar !! haaahaaa Pic will be upload soon!